I am not really a talented person. I can sing, but not impressively so. I am not an athlete. You get the point. But I did think that I was smart. I got good grades. Knowledge is good thing. But it can also lead to pride, and then to the terrible realization that I really don't know everything.
I read once that the most humbling thing in the world is to realize that you are average. I am terribly average, and yet I longed to excel.
Now, I realize that I will never be a great singer, writer, artist, anything. But I can excel. I can excel in my prayer life. I can excel as a wife and mother. I can excel in humility (is that possible?)
I used to want to excel to be noticed. Unfortunately this desire still exists. I must surrender this desire to God. God wants me to excel "behind the scenes" so that all the glory is for Him. It must please Him when I admit that I don't know everything. He's probably thinking, "Now shes beginning to learn!"
Thank you God for noticing me.
10 months ago