Friday, September 01, 2006

I am grateful

Why so we wait for Thankgiving to give thanks? I would like to go on record for saying this. I am thankful for my salvation. I am thankful for my family and my Church. I am thankful for all the churches that support us monthly so that we can do the Lord's work here. I am thankful for my house and my minivan, my washer and dryer. (try going without them for a while, you'll become extremely grateful for their existence!) I feel that God has blessed us with so much. Why then do I always want more? Why doesn't gratitude mellow out into contentment? I like my house, but I would also like a bigger, better one. I like my minivan, but would really like a newer one. (its a 1987 model) (Sigh.....)

I have wonderful family all over the place and they love me. My husband loves me and so do my kids. We have great, loyal friends. Yet, with all this, I still seek approval and want to be liked. Why? Why do I crave comments on my blog? Why do I care if people read it? Everytime a get a lot of comments on a particular post I feel like Sally Fields at the Oscars "You like me! You really like me!" I feel so shallow.

Why am I not just giddy knowing that God loves me and Jesus died for ME? Why don't I just bask in the daily presence of the Holy Spirit? Why do I care so much what people think of me? Because I do.

When somebody figures this out, blog about it, OK?


1 comment:

stephanie garcia said...

Funny that you mention the comment thing - I agree, it's such a letdown to visit my blog(s) and not find responses! But then I remember how many sites I visit without responding (Oops!) Great reminder about thankfulness, btw! (: